never letting you go

"never letting YOU go"

... yet I'm choking myself. 

I wonder if really feminine boutique stores would hire me. Like, 'Peter Alexander'? I wonder if I do get hired, will I become super girly like the store is? :P

I wonder if this 'recession' will mean that I won't get hired next year? 

Would I opt to suffer in pain and die if I ever get cancer or will I go through the usual chemotherapy? On the basis that the cancer cells have spread and/or is quite big.

Will I actually be afraid when staring in the face of death or will I be just as calm about as I am now? 

This natural balance of life... I believe in it yet I don't understand it. If we were meant to die some time- why did God give us enough brains to slow down/quicken (pollution and all) the process? 

One's death doesn't bring joy to anyone in the world but does it bring relief to the one who had to suffer before dying?

When will the end justify the means?

When will one cease to believe?

the time we live in

"the time we live in"

letters mean emails

keeping in touch means leaving msg on facebook

Caring means calling and forgetting

A world where love does not mean...

"Always and forever"

just fuck each other already

"Just fuck each other already"

We are all annoyed. so just fucking do it already.

Fuck.

Sue-Anne needs some angry music... Sue-Anne needs some sanity...

FUCK

Acceptance

"Acceptance"

Acceptance the last step when facing "grief" over a loss.

Sometimes, one just needs to accept that something or someone is gone.

Sometimes you have to know that it is time to say 'goodbye' and just let it all go.

It is easy to survive alone but harder to open one's heart to let others in.

How long will pushing away last?

let it be

"let it be"

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial 

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial 

Stop asking me why. 

There's no reason why.

It just leaves me with...

confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion

confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion 

confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion confusion 

just leave me in ...

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial 

denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial denial 

to love...

"to love..." 

as Jo once said does "give a great feeling".

But, at this point I just need to feel.

Can't decide whether Im in denial, desperate or just bored~

Haven't felt anything for a while. Have not felt angry, frustrated, irritated, happy, excited, satisfied, enthusiastic, sad or anything in a while. 

Just tired~

Just oh so tired~