... Then neither shall I.
Heavy heart
My heart is heavy.
Heavy with people's doubts and fears.
Am I delusional to be optimistic?
Heavy with people's doubts and fears.
Am I delusional to be optimistic?
About complaints and control
Good quote from the boy: you should not be complaining if you haven't taken reasonable steps to resolve the issue in the first place. Step up and address the issue rather than living around it.
On an entirely separate note, I was just thinking about how just because some ppl insist what they do is showing you their love and taking care of you, it still shouldn't give them the right to control you. Live by their rules per say. I cannot continue to ask how high every time someone says jump. Advice hidden as mere suggestions, but their real intention is for me to do exactly what they want.
My dreams and values are NOT your dreams and values just because you caveat your advice with "see, we love you so much".
On an entirely separate note, I was just thinking about how just because some ppl insist what they do is showing you their love and taking care of you, it still shouldn't give them the right to control you. Live by their rules per say. I cannot continue to ask how high every time someone says jump. Advice hidden as mere suggestions, but their real intention is for me to do exactly what they want.
My dreams and values are NOT your dreams and values just because you caveat your advice with "see, we love you so much".
Everyday
I wish everyday were like today.
Wet, sloshy and cold on the outside. Warm, snuggly and filled with love on the inside.
Days like these, I wish I could give my everything to hv time frozen in our day dreams like this.
Wet, sloshy and cold on the outside. Warm, snuggly and filled with love on the inside.
Days like these, I wish I could give my everything to hv time frozen in our day dreams like this.
The good girl
I have always been the good girl. Why do I rebel now?
Because you didn't know I have always been too scared to do things my own way.
Because you didn't know I have always been too scared to do things my own way.
Plans
My family have big plans for me.
What they can't seem to accept is when my plans and other ppl's
plans differ from their preferred timeline and ideals.
They judge from afar but I wanna believe that those ppl are happy despite not following the set plan I have been brainwashed to believe most ideal my whole life.
Are those ppl rly happy? Anyone out there with a story? I need to get out and meet ppl on the ground and understand more stories. I'm starting to doubt the stories my family has shared. They always asked me not to touch the fire and I have always listened. Recently, I'm mesmerized by the fire and I feel the heat and I feel myself wanting to reach out and touch it.
What they can't seem to accept is when my plans and other ppl's
plans differ from their preferred timeline and ideals.
They judge from afar but I wanna believe that those ppl are happy despite not following the set plan I have been brainwashed to believe most ideal my whole life.
Are those ppl rly happy? Anyone out there with a story? I need to get out and meet ppl on the ground and understand more stories. I'm starting to doubt the stories my family has shared. They always asked me not to touch the fire and I have always listened. Recently, I'm mesmerized by the fire and I feel the heat and I feel myself wanting to reach out and touch it.
Overprotected
It is clear my overprotective parents will not listen to me. Even when my plans slightly differ from theirs.
This is why I'm unhappy. Yet they assume its because of my relationship. I cannot seem to do things my own way without them saying I should do it another way. No doubt they have experience and wisdom behind them but even the tiniest decisions in my life seem to have to go through them.
YOU my dear father and mother are what is driving me further away from you not anyone else. It is why I tire of telling you my plans and I tire speaking with you because u seem to want to judge and dictate everything I do.
Please please just leave me alone.
This is why I'm unhappy. Yet they assume its because of my relationship. I cannot seem to do things my own way without them saying I should do it another way. No doubt they have experience and wisdom behind them but even the tiniest decisions in my life seem to have to go through them.
YOU my dear father and mother are what is driving me further away from you not anyone else. It is why I tire of telling you my plans and I tire speaking with you because u seem to want to judge and dictate everything I do.
Please please just leave me alone.
Source of my sadness
How does one tell their loved ones that the source of your sadness is their want for your happiness?
Potential
The problem with potential is that everyone believes that they can help you hone it and make u happy.
For the sake of my mental being
Despite all the stress of working life. The expectations, the traffic(!!), the juggling between work and study, the backward thinking of the govt, I feel a sort of relief that I'm home.
Someone asked me why I came back instead of staying over in Australia and I said "for the sake of my mental being".
I hope this is the right move. At least I know I feel comfortable with my decision so far. Will this last?
Someone asked me why I came back instead of staying over in Australia and I said "for the sake of my mental being".
I hope this is the right move. At least I know I feel comfortable with my decision so far. Will this last?
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